Four weeks ago, I woke up in the middle of the night with the most excruciating stomach pain going from my sternum to my groin. I could hardly breathe and couldn’t find any relief. Even though I’d never had one before, I was convinced it was a gall bladder attack. I began to treat it like a gall bladder attack looking for help on-line. Nothing helped and each day the pain increased, I was unable to eat anything and by day 10, I could barely even sip water. On a scale of 1 – 10, the pain was a 9/10!! It was debilitating. I had already lost a pound a day and could barely talk. I was getting weaker with every passing day. Amazingly enough, I wasn’t afraid. I did have a vision one night before I called Karin and wondered whether I was going to pass over.
I emailed Karin the 10th evening in absolute desperation and we began a program the next morning, day & night for the next 10 days. It turned out my spleen, which filters the blood, had become inflamed and that inflammation had spread to my stomach, digestive tract and everything else. I was sicker than I knew. It was as if I had been swallowing poison (pain, betrayal, humiliation) for so long. I had the stomach pain off and on for the majority of my life. I had learned to live with it or manage it. Obviously, it was no longer manageable.
On the second day I went through the worst nightmare: things got much worse, inflammation increased and so did the pain. Karin reassured me that many things were coming to the surface and sometimes things need to get worse before they can get better. They just want to be felt after years of suppression. After truly allowing myself to feel, I had some relief, for the first time. Because I was so dehydrated my strength has taken some time to return.
Each day now, I am stronger in my body but the real thrill for me has been the “clarity” that I am experiencing, what I can “hear”, and noticing for how long I didn’t trust what I heard, or ignored it.
This is the learning we have all been asking for but didn’t know how or what questions to ask. I know I’m not the only one who feels this way or is having similar, maybe even more debilitating circumstances, but I am very clear that this is an exciting new path for me and anyone else who desires clarity: mentally, emotionally, physically & Spiritually.
Thank you, thank you, thank you Karin. The teachers are here: we just need to ask and they appear.